doubt=trust

one of my biggest problems is when i'm deeply in love with someone, i feel upset when i see them in love with someone else. i feel like i have some unique bond with a girl, but then she has a unique bond with this girl or that boy and i'm shocked. and of course that doesn't make sense. i have many loves. so why does it feel like i'm abandoned or something? betrayed? it's a little pain that pokes me in the side, no matter how hard i know it's wrong. and then i hold myself away from this person. i doubt them, i doubt myself, i feel as if i don't know them anymore. but i need to trust these people i love. lay my life and heart into their hands. know that their love is shared, but each love is equally important. and i know that. every person i love is for an equally, beautifully good reason. i just need to trust that this is what other people are doing too. that my relationship with them is still meaningful. because i need that.